Date: April 2, 2005
Genre: ...desperation..?

        I'm happy with this!  I have no idea why, though... but it feels like a completed portion of "something" that needed... completing...  Alright, nevermind.
        The first and last portions ("I tried to scream...") were just thoughts I came up with while trying not to go completely insane on a treadmill--great for rhythm, though.  The large middle portion, though, I'd written sometime in 2000.  Yeah, it's that old.  And I hadn't rediscovered it until well after I'd built the beat and recorded the first portion... it just fit, so.  Here it is.

I tried to scream
I tried to scream so many times
So many broken dreams

I tried to scream
I tried to scream so many times
So many broken things

I tried to scream
I tried to scream so many times
So many broken dreams

I tried to scream
I tried to scream so many times
So many broken things

Foolish girl
Foolish pride
What's take within
Was once on the outside

Desperate sense
Desperate pain
Lest you stop now
You can never refrain

Tainted dreams
Tainted soul
You cry 'til you're halved
Yet you cry to be whole

Torn decisions
Torn flesh
You so love your art
Made of veins and mesh

Conquered city
Conquered sleep
You claw to escape
But you know you're too deep

Good intentions
Good will
You say you're so frightened
But you can't quite the thrill

Wicked warnings
Wicked little elf
You claim you have the gift
But you can't see for yourself

Ever after
After hence
You say you sense the maker
But you can't make the sense

Burning fire
Burning eyes
Tears of redemption
Make for pleasant sighs

Beaten purple
Beaten blue
Senseless exorcism
Can't kill the monster in you

Screams of passion
Screams of hate
The little optimist
Believes in nothing but fate

Guarded passage
Guarded way
Just tell me you're holy
Then try to kneel down and pray

Dust of treasure
Dust of bone
My little freedom-fighter
Who said your will was your own?

Naked truth
Naked lies
Just shut the hell up
And start asking your why's

Closed mind
Closed doors
A little hard to scream
When your voice isn't yours

I tried to scream
I tried to scream so many times
So many broken dreams

I tried to scream
I tried to scream so many times
So many broken things

I tried to scream
I tried to scream so many times
So many broken dreams

I tried to scream
I tried to scream so many times
So many broken things

I tried to scream

I tried to scream

- lyrics and music copyright 2005,
Orin Drake